I've been struggling for some time with this and that - Alex and his Aspergers, Amber and her teenageritis and work and all of the vulnerable claimants whom I can't help as much as I would like to. My problem is I've been on the other side of the counter - claiming benefits - and I know how hard it is. So I find it hard to switch off from it all.
The upshot of this is that I have been signed off for the past four weeks with anxiety and depression. I'm going to counselling and have doubled my antidepressants and I'm attending a six week course of stress control. The biggest thing is that the Occupational Health people have told me bluntly that I am not suitable for my job !!! The council has a policy of swapping staff into other jobs if there are any available and it is needed. So this may be happening to me soon - if no other jobs then no job !!! So that is a scary thought, although they keep telling me that they are not allowed to do this.
Anyway, I never know what my mood is going to be from one moment to the next. I can be happy and optimistic one moment and then within seconds dip into the pit of doldrums convinced that nothing is ever going to go right again. This is not me.
I'm knitting Bagpuss for a friends daughter, and I have got a knitpicks bag on the needles and a plethora of small projects planned for Christmas presents. I always love Christmas so I'm using that to keep me going.
I know who my swap box pal is for this Christmas but all I can say is - could you all blog and let us know what you cannot have - for instance if you hate chocolate or are allergic to it or anything else for that matter. I know we did this last year but do you think I can find the lists we made?
Anyway, sorry again for the long silence - I have been regularly reading all of your blogs and they have cheered me up - I love reading all of this stories of normal life going on around me. I am now going to watch Kirstie's Homemade Home.
TTFN
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Great to hear from you Claire.I am so sorry you have not been feeling well.That feeling of being happy one minute and down in the dumps the next is awful.I know.Usually you don't know what triggered it.Life must be so difficult as well with your son.I was reading Julie's blog Littlecottonrabbits earlier.Her son is autistic but hasn't got Aspergers.Try looking it up.She is a knitter too.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with all your projects.they always help.I still havn't finished my Debbie Abrahams blanket.I lost interest in it but I must do it sometime!
Keep blogging.I would love to know what your xmas projects are.They might give me some ideas!
So sorry to hear you have been struggling along - I know some of what you are going through.
ReplyDeleteWe are all here to support one another if you need it - you only have to ask.
Can't wait to see some of your projects - it is always exciting to get new ideas.
Take care, Sxx